Ravelry

I got my invite and joined Ravelry, I've been spending all my online time trying to get all my stuff on there, not that I have a lot of online time, I work far to much! My username on Ravelry is Butchknttr. I just love it! The queue is gonna get me in trouble, mine just keeps growing.......

Well I'm off, have a great day
Blessed be,
Sarah

Animal Abuse!!! LOL

We decorated the tree on the 1st, and I was feeling kind of festive, or, maybe it was abusive, that's the household pets' belief! Take a look....

All I want for Christmas is a Speedle-Bug!





"MOTHER!!! Leave me alone!", says Callie.



I am SO going to vomit in your shoe for this!


Dane the Drag Queen dog!


Pooka is not impressed with my shenanigans one bit.


Even the turtles aren't immune to my torture.


Blessed be,
Sarah

Check it OUT!

Well, you saw what the floor looked like a couple of hours ago, take a look at what we just did!






Do you see what we are about to do?




That's right, we just put in the last piece that won't need to be sawed up the length! Take a look at how nice it looks!




Yes, I am proud of myself actually! Now I have a lot more to do, but that's all for the moment, one room at a time people! LOL

Blessed Be

Latest project - no yarn, this time... POWER TOOLS!!!

I have been on an anti-carpet fit lately, mainly because my house was carpetted in all white, I say WAS, it is no longer! I started in my daughter's room, we have ripped up the carpet and started laying hardwood look laminate in the downstairs, and ripping up the carpet and refinishing the hardwood upstairs. Take a look at the munchkin's room!








This is the floor, half done. Well, back to my saw!

Blessed Be!

Carla's Birthday Scarf

I finished Carla's pink scarf in time for her birthday. Sometimes I impress even myself. It turned out beautiful.




This is the end, with the intertwined diamonds. There are two sets of diamonds on each end, and a twisted rib throughout. It is my own version of the Connections Scarf from Knitting Daily. I used the most wonderful, soft wool I could find, and talk about love, I even was seen knitting pink in public for her! LOL Carla is a wonderful friend, even on top of being my boss! LOL

It seems like I have no knitting time anymore, but it seems like I just have no time lately. For anything! LOL

Catch you all later,
Blessed Be,
Dragon

Look what I just got!

I just took this picture in my backyard! Isn't he beautiful!



I was just amazed when I got this picture! And he looked right at me, too! Then I got to watch him take off and fly over the backyard, I was only a few yards from him when I took the picture, then he took off.

On a knitting note, I took a break from all my other projects for a little while so I could make a going away gift for my manager, Erica, who was transferred to another store recently. We're going to miss her, but Georgette, our new manager seems pretty cool. I have to get the picture of Erica's scarf up soon.

Later,
Sarah

Knitting at the Pride Rally!

Yestersay the kids, D, and I went to the Pride march/rally in Erie. We marched through downtown Erie, from the Zone to a park, and the rally was at the park. There was a great show, with some amazing performers, as well as speakers. All in all it was an awesome day, well worth going over 24 hours without sleep for! LOL I work nights now, so I came home from work and knitted while the rest of the house kept on sleeping, then woke everybody up to go.

I had a ball, and even though D and I are not a couple anymore, it still meant a lot to me to take her to her first pride event. We got there early, helped with the float, even the kids were up to the challenge! Little Sean was using the helium tank and blowing up balloons for the marchers to carry. He was just to cute!




Here is J helping on the float!




And here is Aj, Sean, and Chey (far right-with my rainbow knitting bag!), on the float during the march.






D marching.

Anyway, on to the knitting content.......

I took my knitting with me, of course. And at the rally I sat at a picnic table knitting away on THE socks (explained soon) and watching the show. My best friend, Tam, was there, she came all the way from Clarion with some other friends, and she was picking on me about my knitting. Which she enjoys doing.

OK, THE Socks! I found this yarn.....





way back in March of 05. I fell instantly insanely in love. The problem, I had to find THE right pattern for it. Not just any old thing would do, it had to be perfect, to show off the colors just right. Well, after untold hours searching since then.... I found it! Kew socks from Knitty! I knew it as soon as I found it, and just couldn't wait to cast on! So I didn't, they were on needles almost immediately! The first one is about halfway down the foot already, and I hope to be casting on the second soon! I am such a weirdo, I LOVE to knit lace, absolutely LOVE it, but I'm not really into actually having it when I get done. My mom usually claims whatever I do lacewise, being a bit more of a femme than I can deal with most of the time, and Chey is quite the girly girl too, so as she gets older it's easier to find a home for lacey frilly stuff I just HAD to knit. But when it comes to my feet, lace, color, the more outrageous the better! I love socks that make people go "Huh? Why would you put that on your feet?" LOL Life is to short to wear boring socks!

Ok, back to my needles,
Blessed Be,
Dragon

Surgery

I am now 2 weeks post op, I spent the last couple of weeks before surgery a total wreck. I have been getting back into my knitting since the surgery, I've been working on a shawl from Victorian Lace Today, which I recently purchased. It is amazing, although I have learned that knitting complicated things when you are in pain can be a bad idea. There are a few mistakes that are easily spotted if you look for them. I'll get some pics posted soon.

I'm using a black sock yarn I got on Ebay, and a really cool sparkley yarn that I found at this great shop in Pittsburgh that I found on one of my trips down to the Dr. recently. Knit One is the shop, I just LOVED it!!!

Blessed Be all

Dragonsong

some more done

Here are some subzero fleece pants, and hats, as well as some booties that will be sent to a cousin who works in an orphanage in Siberia, they have over 600 children there, I've never heard anything so sad in my life.

Off to work,

Blessed Be,

Dragonsong

knitting at work

My magick loop sox, I cast them on right before I started my shift, and this is how far I got in one 8 hour shift at the plastics factory where I work!

I finished the blue ones I have been working on, now gotta get off my butt and weave in the ends and take a pic of them.

Now I am off to job #2, at Sheetz for the midnight shift, I just had to share how much I got done tonight!

Blessed Be
Dragonsong

The pond

Here is the pond with a view of the top wall, which we just got going on this past week. I promise better pics later.

Kittens

Here are our babies, they are 5 1/2 weeks old now, I can't believe it. Anyone want a kitten?

Blessed Be

Thurston Classic Balloons

Here are the balloons going over our house, it's the one on the left.

Wow

Alcohol induced blogging, I would not recommend trying it yourself. Forgive that last post, I was slightly tipsy and answering my ex's poem Too, about our relationship.

On a knitting note, I am on the ribbing of the blue socks! YEAH! Then I have a few other things to get done before I pat myself on the back. I swear I get more knitting done at work than at home. Of course when I am at home I am usually with the munchkins. We set up the pool yesterday, an 18 ft, 4 ft deep pool is empty in the middle of our backyard, what fun!

While we were putting it up we got to see the hot air balloons go over. The Thurston Classic is this weekend here in Meadville, and the balloons go right over our house! That was cool.

See you later,
Dragonsong

Enough

I didn't spend enough time with her
I didn't do enough for her
I didn't understand enough about her addictions
I didn't listen enough to her problems (and still don't)
I didn't let her visit her "friends" enough (you know, the ones she drank and got high with)
I didn't let her visit her family enough (between 10 PM and 3 AM, when do you visit your folks?)
I didn't have a high enough libido
I didn't have a low enough libido (it depended on the day)
I didn't clean enough
I didn't work enough
I didn't talk enough
I didn't do enough for her health care (I just went to every Dr. appt. and got her scripts., ect.)
I didn't go out enough
I didn't stay home enough (once again, depends on the day)
I didn't give her enough
I didn't love her enough
And I didn't care enough, and the list goes on, for f*cking ever, because I am a rotten human being who doesn't deserve to live because I made my wife so miserable that she had no choice but to screw Ember just to get me to let her leave me!

Have a nice day,
Dragonsong

PS. Too, means also dearheart, you wanted to.

Blue socks

I made a great discovery last night at work, if I am on an easy machine I can knit at work! I work in a plastics manufacturing company, we make all sorts of plastic things, like ladder pieces, flyswatters, you name it. Last night I was on one of the ones that you get to basically sit and watch the machine and put what comes out in a box. I was knitting most of the night, I got about an inch on the blue socks I was working on at the beach. They are toe ups, the first is done and the second is close, I just have a little bit of leg and ribbing to go!

Blessed Be
Dragonsong

Pride Picninc in Erie

Knitting on the beach! We went to the Pride Picnic, and I took my socks I'm working on. That's me, the knitting butch! LOL

Blessed Be
Dragonsong

concentration gap

I can't knit.

I can't think.

Here's a newsflash: breaking up sucks! I know, nothing real Earthshattering in that statement, hmm? If this is what insanity feels like, just kill me now. I miss her, then I'm mad as H*ll at her, then I want to tell her that I still love her, then I never want to see her again, then I want to call her, then I want to throw everything that reminds me of her in a heap and burn it, then I think I want us to be friends, then I have an overwealming urge to yell my head off at her, then... ect. ect. ect...

But through it all, I can't knit.

Or think.

I've been working on my genealogy a little. No self starting here, I got an email from a cousin in California, who found a quiery I posted a year ago. And of all the amazing wierd wonderful things that fate does to us, he works for a non-profit that helps people with autism! I have one branch that I had been stuck on in fairly recent times back to the 1600s now thanks to him! How cool is that?

I'm off to bed, maybe tomorrow I'll work on the weekend baby blanket that I have been trying to knit for almost a month. Maybe.

TTFN
Blessed Be
Dragonsong

latest batch

I finally got some actual knitting photos out of the camera, this is the last batch of stuff that I did for LBoH, I toss everything into a laundry basket as I finish until I have enough to do a load, then I wash it, and put it into the bins we separate everything into until we put layettes together. I have almost another load already.

Blessed Be

Dragonsong

I can't sleep

I hate the night.
The world is at peace, resting, quiet, and here I am, alone, with my thoughts.
My mind races.
What should be different.
I know. She should be here.
But I am alone. My bed cold and empty, to large for just one.
My arms ache to hold her.
My head to lay on her breast.
Hear her heartbeat.
Wisper, I love you, as I feel her breath on my cheek.
I pretend it's OK all day long.
I can't pretend at night.
I want her next to me.

Autism Walk finish line

Me, AJ, Chey, and Sean (in his sister's pink hoodie- what a great way to keep track of where he was in the crowd!)

Almost forgot!!!!!!!

I forgot to post that we went on the Autism walk in Erie! It was awesome! Sean had a rough time at first, because of all the people, I had to carry him for the first quarter mile, which was not easy, but he acclimated after that and he rode his scooter and ran around. It was a great day, even though it was cold and rainy, we had so much fun. I'll get the pics out of my camera and post some.

Blessed Be
Dragonsong

Just leave the flying monkeys alone already!

OK, I don't know why, but the three kids have had an obsession with the flying monkeys lately. Everything that happens, AJ says, "The flying monkeys did it!" The wicked witch of the west was just misunderstood! LOL

I'm trying to get my butt motivated to knit, the part that sucks is my motivation is, D is leaving, so I need to finish all of the projects I have been working on for her. Boy does that get me in the mood to get my needles clicking! HA!!! I think my hand is rehabbed about 95%, it still gets tired faster than it used to but I can knit again for longer than ten minutes at a time so I am happy.

I have been talking a lot to the group of people I met at the Zone last Wed., I am really happy that fate led me there that night, I don't know what possessed me to go there, but I made a group of great friends at a time when I needed a group of great friends, so the Goddess provided. We must have faith. So much is changing in my life, I am trying to be positive about it all. For the first time in a long time the other night I pulled out my herbs, I got my Cunningham book from the shelf and looked for herbs to help with anger, for the first time I thought Cunningham let me down, but the book opened on it's own to healing herbs when I dropped it in frustration. I made an incense of chamomile, rose, sage, and a few other healing herbs, I lit my altar candles, and I just sat and meditated with the incense burning. I do feel healed. Not completely, but on the right path, and MUCH less angry.

I don't know what is going to happen to me, or with me and D, but whatever happens, I know that I have three great kids, I have some great new friends, and I have my faith. My faith will never let me down so long as I keep it. I am going to do more to practice better, get to church more (the UU church- link at right- is so wonderful!), and just work on me. I am the only one who can heal me, I can let others help, but nobody can do it for me.

Always do your best to commit random acts of kindness, and senseless acts of beauty.
Blessed Be,
Dragonsong

Austin

Here is AJ, holding Logan, who we were babysitting, and Maddie. Now I have finally posted a pic of each one of them!

Sean

Cheyenne

Speidle

This is Speed, Callie's brother, yes, he is climbing out of a case of pop, he's a wierdo. It's a requirement to be part of this family.

Our insane animals

Here you go, in case you've never seen a kitten boss around a rotweiler! This is Her Fluffyness Princess Callie telling off Dane our rottie. Dane is afraid of the kittens, it's a riot!

Sometimes life sucks

My girl and I are breaking up. After 3 1/2 years of being together we just can't make it work anymore right now. I am heartbroken to say the least. I hope we can make it as friends, the kids deserve that, for us to be able to be friendly and still work together to make decisions about their care. Our 6 yr old, Sean, is taking it hard, he is autistic and just can't handle changes.

I need to make some positive changes in my life. For one, I need to get a life, other than just the kids. Not that the kids aren't wonderful, but they are the only thing in my life, them and my work with Little Bit of Heart. I need to do some stuff for me.

I have made a start on that. I went to the Zone, and met some great people who I hope to become good friends with. One has made a pretty lasting impression already that we'll be pretty close. That's cool, I need some friends.

I haven't been knitting in the last little while, but this week I've had the sewing machine pretty busy. I've made a laundry basket full of little clothes and quilts and things for LBoH. I'll post pictures of stuff when I get back from taking the kids to school.

TTFN
Blessed Be
Dragonsong

Cooking all day

My Chey and I have been cooking for the last 4 hours! It's been fun. Chey is 10 years old now, (where did my baby disappear to?) and I've been passing on all my cooking secrets to her. Today we made a huge batch of jambalaya (in a 16 quart stock pot!), a bunch of stuffed peppers, beef stew, and a great big mess in the kitchen! We're working on our 3rd load of dishes in the dishwasher now. But this way I won't have to spend my evenings after work this week cooking, and my family still gets to have real food, so it works out.

We've been working on our doll houses, D's is coming along nicely, I have the wiring to get it "electrified" as soon as I have 10 minutes to do it! LOL The one the kids and I are working on still needs walls, but that's just a minor detail. ;o) I'll get pictures posted asap, I promise.

Gotta run, stuff in the oven,
Blessed Be,
Dragon

Today at the cemetery

This is what I took to the cemetery today, to my "Little Bit", Sommer. I still can't believe it's been 2 years already. Nothing breaks your heart as bad as the death of a child. There is a folder of pictures of her in my Yahoo photos, follow the link "Photo album" at right. The link to Little Bit of Heart is the organization we run in her memory.

Two years, and I still wake up expecting to go pick her up. Then it all comes crashing back. She'd be 5 1/2 years old now. So many things we are missing. The only comfort I have is knowing that she is waiting for me to be with her. But I still miss her so much. I have spent the last month trying to not cry. And failing miserably. I cry at such stupid things, commercials, little girls her age in the store, the sight of her things, which is hard, since I have some of her toys and a doll wearing her last Yule dress on a shelf in our bedroom.

I'm losing my mind, right?

I thought so too.

Blessed Be,

Dragonsong

New member of the family

We adopted a little Chi, see! This is my girl, with our little girl, Maddie. Ignore the time/date stamp, it's off, we've only had her for about 2 weeks. I have been itching to find a little sweater pattern that is worthy of her! I've actually gotten back to being able to knit for a little while at a time, I'm up to about half an hour at a time now.

Maddie loves to sit on our shoulders, and she sleeps in between us under the covers, guess what that cuts into......... :o( LOL She is so spoiled!

I have some more pictures to post, hopefully tomorrow.

TTFN,

Blessed Be,

Dragonsong

The flu, and my inability to knit

Our whole house has had the flu all week, doesn't that sound great, me and my girl, as well as all 3 kids, sick, cranky, and miserable. Talk about a great week. It just doesn't get any better than that.

Oh, wait, it does.

I still can't knit, after over a month. I get these weird migraines that make me lose control of my left side, the first one was in 2003, shortly before I met my girl, they put me in the hospital because they thought I had a stroke. At 24! Anyway, I'm a lousy patient, and had a fit and left the hospital, but that is another story, involving a latex allergy that this hospital really didn't care about. They did it another time too, but that time I was simply to sick to fight back. I almost died of pneumonia, in August! I am such a freak!

But back to the story at hand, I had another one of those wonderful migraines about a month ago, I was fine, then suddenly I had this searing pain in my head, so bad that I didn't know where I was or anything, and my left side just stopped working with me. I was having trouble walking, I kept falling for the first week, then my leg started working better, but I am still working on getting full control of my hand, it is returning slowly, but I can only knit for a few minutes and it just hurts to much to go on.

Only someone whose world involves knitting as much as mine can fully appreciate what this is doing to me. I knit EVERY day, sometimes ALL day. I am getting so depressed that I can't function because of the pain in my hand. I have been trying to fill my knitting time with other things, you should see my scrapbook area, it's totally reorganised and it looks great. I have been sewing more, doing some quilting. It just isn't the same. Knitting calms me down. Which is important when caring for an autistic kid with severe ADHD. I NEED calm!

On an up note, my girl has been getting into quilting a little bit, she loves miniatures, and she has been getting into mini quilts.

Blessed be,
Dragonsong

Genealogy

I've been working on my genealogy lately, I don'tknow why I didn't join Ancestry.com before! It's so great! I have found cousins researching the same family, and I have found information on people that I had been stuck on. I've linked up with people who have given me new directions in my research. I've learned a lot about my scottish ancestors, which aren't that far back, my great grandfather, John Nelson Beveridge, came to America when he was 6 in 1881. I've learned a lot about our clan. I've been on a quest to find our tartan, which has gotten me nowhere, it looks as though I may have to find someone to hand weave it for me. Any ideas? Yeah, me neither.

I'm working on a needlepoint of my girl's family crest, it may take a while. I am also working on an Aran sweater for her, that she designed from photos of Aran stitches. It's an untraditional one, but I think it's going to be great, it's a beautiful turquiose.

Well, Ta Ta For Now,
Blessed Be,
Dragonsong

Yule scarves and pillowcase

Here are 5 scarves I did for Yule, different yarns, but basically the same, and AJ's pillowcase. Aj loves hot pink more than anything in the world. I'll get around to posting more soon, I've just been under the weather lately.

Blessed Be,

Dragonsong

Happy NewYear

Wow it's 2007 already!

I've been working on a crocheted scrap rug for the last few days. Other than that I've been working on my genealogy. Haven't done much else, just coming down from the excitement of the holidays. I still need to upload pics of the things I knitted for Yule. Boy now that I think about it, I've been really lazy lately.

I'll get it done soon, I promise.

Blessed Be,
Dragonsong